My Little Stuffs

"Piece of Me" If I have to lose piece of me, maybe I don't want to be happy. If I have to lose a bit of me, maybe I don't want to see what a success is supposed to be. But you keep telling me to do what I have to do. I don't know if I'm happy. I don't know if I'm not either. Cause my heart has already numb after constant tearing all day and night. I couldn't tell which part of me, is me. Cause I've lost too many pieces of me.

"The High Notes Sound" It feels a little... little little. Just a little, not too much. What can I expect from me if I can't even trust my self? A little bit longer, I guess, is enough for me to find out the true of me. But if I do find it, then what? Simply I don't want to bother me my self anymore. When I hear the Schindler's List theme by John William, my heart stops for a moment, just to realize how beautiful it truly is. I can clearly feel the scream. I can clearly feel the scream. The sorrow, the sadness. My heart claps unrespectfully, but my hands freeze. __Subkhan Sarif__ 2016

This is my music I composed using MuseScore app. The instruments I use are piano, violin, cello, and harmonica.

Suatu ketika aku harus berurusan dengan polisi. Bukan karena ditilang nggak  pakai helm atau lampu motor nggak  nyala karena aku ngga punya motor. Tapi untuk memperpanjang SIM yang akan habis masa berlakunya besok. Jadi aku berangkat ke polsek lalu lintas yang ada di jalan Jawa. Persyaratan untuk memperpanjang SIM sebenarnya tidak banyak dan tidak rumit. Hanya dibutuhkan foto copy KTP dan SIM dan surat keterangan sehat jasmani. Malangnya aku nggak tahu kalau butuh surat keterangan sehat jasmani, jadi aku harus buat dulu. Haissh , ribet amat!!! #kesal #padahalNggakRibetAmatSih #cumaCapek Jadilah aku harus ke tempat checkup yang untungnya nggak terlalu jauh.  Nah, pas aku lagi mau nyeberang, tiba-tiba ada bapak paruh baya menghampiriku. Awalnya ku kira bapaknya mau markir mobil di belakangku jadi aku minggir. Tapi ku lihat ngga ada mobil. "Mas, mau bikin?" Kata bapaknya. Aku bingung, agak lelet mikir. Soalnya masih ngira kalau bapaknya nggak lagi ngomong ke aku. ...

There's moment when you're in my heart, and made me believe there's only one star, and that's you... There's moment when you went away, it broke my heart, but I don't know about you. I want you to: Feel the way I feel in thousand times before you go, just to see the struggles I've been putting in to my life for you. I won't ask for too much from you. I just need to know that: you know what I feel about you. 'cuz it makes me feel better. I won't do things that you won't do to me, 'Cuz I heart you and me together. I flipped by you and I hope you flipped by me too, 'cuz it's hard to live without you. I want you to: Feel the way I feel in thousand times before you go, just to see the struggles I've been putting into my life for you. I won't ask for too much from you. I just need to know that: you know what I feel about you. 'cuz it makes me feel better. -- Subkhan Sarif ...

So I've been working on my final project for a while now. Sometimes I got stuck for the idea and didn't know what to do, and it was the time to take a break. So instead of doing nothing and actually take a break, I chose to practice my violin. This time I was playing Canon In D, duet with my self. *** Follow me on social media: instagram: http://instagram.com/subkhansarif twitter: http://twitter.com/sarifsubkhan facebook: http://facebook.com/subkhan.sarif

This is my first time ever to record me playing the violin. I've been learning to play a violin for about 5-6 months by self-taught. It's pretty hard, but for me it's less hard than to play a guitar. It's not purrfect, in fact there are a lot of mistakes here and there, but I never give up, and I'll never give in. The song I play is called Tanah Airku which is one of Indonesian national song. It's beautiful if it's being played nicely. If you find that it's not beautiful enough, perhaps it's me that can't play it properly yet, for that I say sorry. hihihi...