My Little Stuffs

Rasanya ingin berlari Tapi ke pelarian mana? Sampainya ke asal mula Rasanya ingin berhenti Tapi di mana? Tempat berlabuh hanya satu jua — Subkhan Sarif

Why does it hurt so much? I feel my pain flowing through my vein All I want is to let you know Now that all is over All I can think of is to let you know Maybe, only time can tell will I feel better

You've been here all along You gotta hear what I said Who are you fooling right now? Never mind what I saw You gotta tell what are you doing here anyway? You mumble and mutter and murmur, speak indistinctly Fine! Don't tell me, don't speak! I don't want to speak to you anyway!

I envy you I envy you Yes you! You who don't have to deal with this kind of problem yes I have Nothing should you worried about Cause all of you have I envy you I envy you Yes you! You who don't mind what people have to say and let yourself be free Never have you questioned yourself "What is wrong with me?" I envy you I envy you Yes you! You who don't have to be afraid of losing yourself You who can easily to say All will be okay

It's like I never know you Though thousands of memories have been made for centuries Still I feel like no one to you What is it does it take If I can't ever feel the same Maybe we can start again To let me feel in love once more But it's impossible What can I say, I made us trouble I long to see your face To feel your breath once more Our memories that last for centuries Now they've all misplaced What once seemed happy place You tell me what remains? It's like I want to know you After all of the things I have spoiled all over you But I keep holding this fear What is it does it take If I can't ever feel the same Maybe we can start again To let me feel in love once more Say that it's possible What can I say, we made us trouble I long to say your name To smell your breath once more Our memories that last for centuries Now they've all misplaced What once seemed happy place Can't see what it remains

Sad sometime's in the hallway Thinking of what we have been through And shrink me into this cold day That I feel like you more everyday So I beg you, let me explain Clearing what's on my and your mind But you keep your distance away So I ask you this everyday Can you believe me? Can you believe if it is true? Will you forgive me? Together we can do this untangle all of this mystery Can you believe me? Can you believe, it is true! Will you forgive me? Cause one time in forever I'll ask you to forever with me Mirror won't fix what you've done, you said Looking back to our memory We've gone through lot's of sugar and pain And you won't give me second chance? Oh my dear, please let me explain To clear, what you take is mistake But you keep your distance away So I ask you this everyday I regret it, it is true that you take it the way you do You'll regret if you know the truth and you take it the way you do

They say, You're so bright, but you're too bright. And I can't stand my eyes to you. Oh... They say, Now you're dim, but you're too grim. And I can't see you in the dark. Some say, Love is love, and that's a love too. And no doubt that it is true! Oh... Other say, This is love, just this is love. It's not a love what you have! TRUE! Some people love who you are Some people mock you and tear you apart Some people proud for who you are Some people tell you, "THIS IS YOUR PATH!" Some people let you be who you are Some people drag you down to the dark Some people laugh and cry for who you are Some people laugh and laugh when you cry They say, Chase your dream, cause it's your dream. And when you've got there it'll feel like a dream. Other say, Stay in real, cause that's not so real. And once you've failed, you can't tell who to blame. So you say, That's enough, cause I've heard enou...

When hand comes to hand And eyes come to eyes I feel summer breeze blows inside my sight. As warm and cold seems to coincide And breathtaking view rolls its slides Reveals its obscured heart to glide. When ears hear what's the year And words can't tell why it tears I see winter tries to reach my dear. It crumbles on thunders No one knows what's its zest. It screams hard like a crawlers Hard to fit and I find it's hard to breath.

In the day of tomorrow Who knows I will glow In a perfect rainbow You and I Something we both never know Even when we try As it will come as surprise Then we say luckily for us In the day of tomorrow We paint our own life We don't bother, we say no As it doesn't meet our go In the day of tomorrow There's something you should know In the dream of neverland We come as a friend So when we feel in the high Don't you ever take them down 'Cuz in the day of tomorrow We don't know if they will glow © Subkhan Sarif 2017

You know what it feels like? I bet you don’t, cuz you ain’t me Wonder if I can get through this life I’m just a boy, I ain’t a man I see the world like it’s sparkling You know the stars, you’re watching! But I don’t know how to keep fist tight cuz my eyes are closed to see the light Oh boy, I’m such a boy! No a man, no! Nor a child Hey man! can you tell me The diff between the left and the right? Life is fair and life is clear I don’t decide. But you, Sir, does! And my mind goes La la la la… La la la la… Again come together. They told me, man, you should be now cuz mustache, beard, and age say so What if I say its too much cuz I’m just a boy, I ain’t a man Oh boy, I’m such a boy! I like green tea and coffee milk Hey you lady, can you tell me what gentleman do you see on me? Case your tail and bite your feet because I’m a boy so you can’t tell me. So my mind says La la la la… La la la la again let’s come together __Subkhan Sarif__

I've been here together with the night Caught up in this invisible dry Haven't heard of rainbow come together when you cry No matter what you beg me to do I can't tell you anything I see No one can change anything what has been written down So many colors So many troubles Time has been chasing down So what's your decision? So many flowers A lot of covers It's a good time to know I got dreaming in the night got you fighting hard Sparkles lighting in the dark never gets you down Your body temperature rises up against the cold of night Water drips down on to stone might soften your heart Walking to the split of path shakes your life to death One will bring you waking up the other keeps you trapped Rumble of the winter comes gathers all your fears around See you no more to the past cut your dreams of night It gets your illusion It gets your attention The only thing you get is you have nothing left You runoff and run fast Trying to get ...

Hidden under your tree come unforgettable leafs it's your daisy it's your daisy Brown from purple and green it's dying but you can't see it's your daisy oh, it's your daisy It's getting higher though feet are gone by but you know it's gonna be alright Don't pull up high mosses have gone regeneration you don't see at only one side it survives the other one dies __Subkhan Sarif__

"Piece of Me" If I have to lose piece of me, maybe I don't want to be happy. If I have to lose a bit of me, maybe I don't want to see what a success is supposed to be. But you keep telling me to do what I have to do. I don't know if I'm happy. I don't know if I'm not either. Cause my heart has already numb after constant tearing all day and night. I couldn't tell which part of me, is me. Cause I've lost too many pieces of me.

"The High Notes Sound" It feels a little... little little. Just a little, not too much. What can I expect from me if I can't even trust my self? A little bit longer, I guess, is enough for me to find out the true of me. But if I do find it, then what? Simply I don't want to bother me my self anymore. When I hear the Schindler's List theme by John William, my heart stops for a moment, just to realize how beautiful it truly is. I can clearly feel the scream. I can clearly feel the scream. The sorrow, the sadness. My heart claps unrespectfully, but my hands freeze. __Subkhan Sarif__ 2016

Suatu ketika aku harus berurusan dengan polisi. Bukan karena ditilang nggak  pakai helm atau lampu motor nggak  nyala karena aku ngga punya motor. Tapi untuk memperpanjang SIM yang akan habis masa berlakunya besok. Jadi aku berangkat ke polsek lalu lintas yang ada di jalan Jawa. Persyaratan untuk memperpanjang SIM sebenarnya tidak banyak dan tidak rumit. Hanya dibutuhkan foto copy KTP dan SIM dan surat keterangan sehat jasmani. Malangnya aku nggak tahu kalau butuh surat keterangan sehat jasmani, jadi aku harus buat dulu. Haissh , ribet amat!!! #kesal #padahalNggakRibetAmatSih #cumaCapek Jadilah aku harus ke tempat checkup yang untungnya nggak terlalu jauh.  Nah, pas aku lagi mau nyeberang, tiba-tiba ada bapak paruh baya menghampiriku. Awalnya ku kira bapaknya mau markir mobil di belakangku jadi aku minggir. Tapi ku lihat ngga ada mobil. "Mas, mau bikin?" Kata bapaknya. Aku bingung, agak lelet mikir. Soalnya masih ngira kalau bapaknya nggak lagi ngomong ke aku. ...

There's moment when you're in my heart, and made me believe there's only one star, and that's you... There's moment when you went away, it broke my heart, but I don't know about you. I want you to: Feel the way I feel in thousand times before you go, just to see the struggles I've been putting in to my life for you. I won't ask for too much from you. I just need to know that: you know what I feel about you. 'cuz it makes me feel better. I won't do things that you won't do to me, 'Cuz I heart you and me together. I flipped by you and I hope you flipped by me too, 'cuz it's hard to live without you. I want you to: Feel the way I feel in thousand times before you go, just to see the struggles I've been putting into my life for you. I won't ask for too much from you. I just need to know that: you know what I feel about you. 'cuz it makes me feel better. -- Subkhan Sarif ...

I saw you were my closest friend But you said, "I've been alone." I remember when we were looking at the sky And I saw we'd be together we ride a bike but end up we're lost Got pictures of us flawless We took a shooting star And we prayed a lot hopes For someday we would get there Yeah, yeah. We bought ice cream for 5 cents We rented books for week end We took a bus everyday We loved it We exchanged letters of us Got perfumed papers inside But then we don't know our self We broke it down Then you zip your mouth When we hear the night We're like two buzzing bees yeah, yeah. -- Subkhan Sarif -- (c) 2016

You try to follow the way they say it's written for you No matter how hard, and you say "Oh My God!" And I always will be with you When you feel so scared to death, exhausted, and you're alone You cheer up yourself to lights up your head But you keep your heart away I hope you see me "Oh My God!" You can't say a word even when your head explodes It's all gone Digging up huge hole inside your heart Everybody say that everything's gonna be fine You don't think so. Everything was bright, the sun shined so light You had no mistakes, sins, nor worries You're so desperate looking back inside yourself Pitch black now all you see Remember the goods, the bads won't leave you any stiches when you look at me, I look back to you You started crying let it free Well, now you see me "Oh My God!" You start to feel lights beam touch into your heart Can you smile? Can you start to feel there's hope inside? You start to see the beauty of ...

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